This swirling entity of deep sadness
You want to purge it
Cough it out like lung tar
No matter how hard you cry or how tightly you ball yourself up
How raw your skin gets or how rough your throat is
It is a part of you
The sun will keep passing by warming your tired face
Knowing millions of others feel the same as you when stepping outside
It doesn’t hurt any less
It bites as hard as winter chill
You get pinned down by this sadness
Having to accept it
Having to awkwardly live alongside it
Some days it resides in a far off part of the house
You hardly know it is there
Other days it is manifested right in your face
When you stare in the mirror
It can disappear for a week or even a month
Giving you time to heal
Time to enjoy being alive
But you can always rely on its return
Like an old friend
To remind you to appreciate things more
To understand that being sad
Is a part of everyone’s life
Not to be ashamed at moments of weakness
Sometimes it will come down on you like a fierce storm
Or other times it trickles down like gentle rain
It is pointless fighting it
You can’t slam a door in its face
It is much better
Even with reluctance
To greet this swirling entity of deep sadness
Give it a place to exist
And with time
The visitations might get shorter
Teaching you new things with every stay
